My clothing mocks me
Every time I put it on.
It whispers awful things
And makes me wish I was gone.
It hangs from my shoulders
Or hugs my flabby hips.
It tells me how fat I am
In harsh and hurtful quips.
My clothing mocks me
With its drab and ugly shapes.
I’m too big for nicer clothes
Always drawing eyes that gape.
Okay, that part might be a lie.
I keep my gaze on the ground
Afraid of their hateful stares
That judge every single pound.
In the end it’s my own sight
I wish to dodge in the mirror.
It rips me apart each time
Feeling me with dread and fear.
I wish to change,
Start down that path
But in my way
Are mocking laughs.
You see, it starts with my clothes
The ones I put on every day.
They judge me harshly
And they’re always in the way.
I wish I was skinny, healthy and free,
But I don’t know if that will ever be me.